Failure

I forgot to call my teacher today by noon, which was my hw assignment. I have tons of excuses why I didn't call on time, all of them good, none of them good enough to make me feel better. I'm really worried the teacher won't call back, and my grade will be screwed if that's the case. This whole week I've only been gettin 4-5 hours of sleep a night, so I feel like crap and I've been up since 6 this morning (I started work an hour early, so for my admin job I'm working 9 hr shift) and then I have to go to the globe and put in a 4-5 hour shift there. I know I chose to do all this, just like I chose to cut my schedule so that i no longer work mon and wed. Except now i feel like this total loser who's not working enough. which is absolutely ridiculous, but there ya go. I walk around it's edgesso manicured and smoothLily ponds on the surfacenothing to mar the cool.It's depths gaze at meand lend to my reflectiona well of hidden meaning.I reach into that mirrorSearching for an elusive I never hope to findand hit bottom immediately.No mysterious depths hereJust a shallow chillthat my body is in kind.