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I'm totally stressing. Finals are fast approaching and all of my final projects/essays are due next week. I am no where near finished with any of them. Actually, I haven't even started my 'Bible as Literature' essay. I worry about earning a 'C' in one of my classes, which, I guess, is better then worrying over failing one of my classes. It is still stressful. I also worry over law school and the like. I think want to become a lawyer, or a teacher, but I'm not sure. I had better decide, because it would be rather silly to go to law school if I don't plan on practicing. At the same time, I'm not so sure I'd make such a great teacher. What are my other options? I don't want to do admin. work for the rest of my life, that's for damn sure. But what kind of career am I really cut out for? Everyone keeps telling me not to worry I have time, but I don't have all that much time in reality. I know I have two or so more years of undergrad, but that's not really all that much. I'll have to start applying to grad schools in about year. Also, when we get back from the road trip, I'll have to start worrying about rent. I'm kinda looking forward to doing the whole independent thing, but it's a little scary and I'm worried I won't be able to pay for school and my insurance. That's another thing, I don't know what's going on with the car. I have that registration ticket that I need to take care of, but it's not my car! I'll have to see about driving up to Redlands, I guess. I just wish I could remember what it was like to feel well rested....

It seems like fun......

post a memory of me in the comments. it can be anything you want. then post this to your journal and see what people remember of you.

misc. surfing stuff

I love surfing and being in the Ocean, but I'm kinda freaked. I really don't want to get stung by a stingray or jelly fish or bitten by a shark. I kinda freak when I'm in the water if I have to put my feet down. Also, I really, really, really don't want to run into Miguel. That'd be way awkward, but I'm not willing to change beaches. I shouldn't have to change beaches just because he's stupid. Anyway, I'll get over it soon, I just needed to vent.

general updates

I got my stingray sting checked out and the podiatrist said that: no, there is not stinger. yes, it is infected. yes, once the infection has run it's course it will still hurt. for 3 months. and he threw the word 'excruciating' in there too. bloody stingrays.but on a more positive note, i went to a padres game at the new stadium on sunday. it was so much fun, i thought i didn't like watching sports, but i like them live. and i have a favorite baseball player. #24 right field, Giles. we had a tailgate party before hand, and that was yummy and fun and then during the game we had dippin' dots ice cream which was cool. the padre's lost, but that's okay, it was still way fun.my car is happy, the sun roof is down so it was able to have a bath. it needed one.johns b-day is today. he's 21, the lucky prick.Happy B-Day!

just ranting

Okay, so i get that people think I'm a tease, i'm not damn it. I just don't know what im doing and im curious but so damn afraid of everything, not just relationships but life in general. i've had to re-think a lot of different things about who i am and what im doing over the past couple of years. romantic relationships have taken a back seat in 'figure out what the hell this is all about' department of my life. so deal. im trying now, i really am, but jesus so what if i mess up every once in awhile and freak out, im trying and im also trying to get the rest of my fucking life in order while i do it.

foot extras

Um, I think that the needle from the stingray is stuck in my foot. Anybody any good at getting out splinters?

Yay for random quiz questions!!!!

The Nitty Gritty1) Single or Taken : Single2) Sex : someday, i hope...oh, wait, female3) Birthday : Nov 214) Sign : Scorpio5) Siblings : 2 sisters, one older and one younger6) Eye Color : Dark Brown7) Height : 5'3"8) School: Grossmont Community CollegeRELATIONSHIPS:1)Do you have a best friend?Actually, I have several. Maddy, John, Erin and Elizabeth.2)Do you have a crush? well, theirs Brian, James, Miguel and then a myriad of celebrities~*~*FASHION STUFF*~*~ 1) Where is your favorite place to shop : Any book store or place that sells really yummy food.....2) Any tattoos or piercings: ears pierced and dragon tattoo on my lower back~*~*THE EXTRA STUFF*~*~ 1) Do you do drugs : Um, i've tried pot and i drink sometimes2) What kind of shampoo do you use : selsun blue 3) What are you most scared of : Failure, which is funny, since i do it so often4) What are you listening to right now : The people in my office typing5) What car do you wish to have : Jeep wrangler, six cylinder standard, metalic red, soft top. it's name would be daisy i think.6) Who is the last person who called you : Sonia from my class7) Where do you want to get married : I've narrowed the venues down to ones on earth....8) How many Messenger buddies are on right now : I'm at work, so i'm not on IM9) If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be: My lack of super powers, i want at least one.~*~*FAVORITES*~*~ 1) Color: Dark Red and black2) What's your favorite food : chocolate, really good rare steak.3) Boy Names : Devon, Damion, Chase, Rohan 4) Girl Names: Lashana, Toby5) Favorite Subject: Literature6) Animal : Black panther7) Game(s): Scrabble, softball~*~*HAVE YOU EVER*~*~ 1) Given anyone a bath : do animals count?2) Smoked : yes3) Broken the Law : you can't prove a damn thing!4) Made yourself throw up: dude....5) Gone skinny dipping?: Someday i will!6) Made yourself cry to get out of trouble : no, although getting into trouble has made me cry and i've gotten out of it~*~*FIRST THING THAT COMES TO MIND*~*~ 1) Red: blood2) Socks : yay!3) Greenland : is a dreadful place a land that's never green.... ~*~*WHAT'S WORSE*~*~ 1) Barfing on your date, or your date barfing on you : your date barfing on you, i guess.2) Losing your bf/gf or losing your good friend: right now it's losing my good friend.~*~*FINAL QUESTIONS*~*~ 1) Do you like filling these out: better than working.... 2) Gold or Silver : silver 3) Favorite cartoon characters : gummi bears!4) Who would you hate being locked in a room with: this really annoying guy with a comp and a big gulp in my english class5) Favorite flower: day lilies6) Favorite Quote:Civilization is effort-Aldous Huxley, Brave new world or The only way to make sure that life doesn't crush you into a paste by dissillusionment, futility and despair is to ensure, to the best of your abilities, that you are doing it solely for the money.-The adventures of cavalier and clay