just ranting

Okay, so i get that people think I'm a tease, i'm not damn it. I just don't know what im doing and im curious but so damn afraid of everything, not just relationships but life in general. i've had to re-think a lot of different things about who i am and what im doing over the past couple of years. romantic relationships have taken a back seat in 'figure out what the hell this is all about' department of my life. so deal. im trying now, i really am, but jesus so what if i mess up every once in awhile and freak out, im trying and im also trying to get the rest of my fucking life in order while i do it.